shooting the breeze??

everything is moving a bit too slow for me, I try and confuse myself by keeping a fast pace schedule but after I've 'snapped to' the long list of daily MUSTS, I find myself walking up and down wishing I had left something undone so I wouldn't feel so work less and... pensive? All I can do it think, think and think and think about things I could be doing, things I can't do because I have no way of doing them. There are somethings I can always do, jog, eat, read... reading is fairly new to me and I find myself reading a lot more then my required amount these days; also I've expanded my interests and I now have a desire to just read from almost any topic. Book-worming is not a very Marie thing to do; who knows, maybe its a Clay thing to do? I've only been Clay for about a year; who knows what she likes to do? She, I, could be totally into books, litterateur, etc. Or maybe it all stems back to the fact that I have way too much time on my hands. Blogging is a manifestation of this time, if you start to notice me posting twice in one evening, its because I am trying to fill this empty space.
(the brake down)
Damn it! I am a strong, healthy, able body! Not a couch potato. there is too much I want to do with my life, I want to live for the Lord and do things that will take longer then this one lifetime gives me room for, I some times feel I'm throwing bits of eternity into the wind. And shooting the breeze? Who invented that? One should never shoot the breeze, its a waits of ammo. I need a target, thats it! I need to clean the girl's room, can't wait to throw away Jesse's crummy purse. And she wont be here to stop me Whahahaha. She'll be at the XD very soon.
(new development)
Also, its seems Little Rock is short a gal so I have been asked to join the band. This means I am actually going to have my work cut out for me as the band has a 2 hour rehearsal 4-7 days a week. Despite my desire to fill empty space I wasn't at all thrilled. In fact I'm not really looking forward to singing in some gloomy bar scenario on my weekends. I hate system musical as well. I am going to be asking the band to add some sweet Family love songs into the ensemble.
love you all. end of ramblings

PS. Phill is coming back from the FDTP tonigh "Hurah"