20/11/09

"a serious disadvantage" ??

(Mama) Retaining a spirit of love and unselfishness, giving and sacrifice for the sake of others, continuing to look out for one another, to care for one another, and choose to do what Jesus would do in each situation, is one of the most important things we can do through this period of change and transition in the Family.
It’s my and Peter’s sincere hope and prayer that we will each do our best to be aware of the needs of others, to bear one another’s burdens, to lift up and support those who are vulnerable or in need, and to, as this short article puts it, “think about the next guy.”

Love, the one thing that's always separated the Lord's children from seas of varying religions and faiths, the one good thing worth trying to be. God is love, that pretty much says it all.
It shouldn't be so complicated but for the last few months since the change program started I've been confused, every things so much more complicated.
I've struggled with the concept of love, how it sometimes seems so far away from daily life and routine. Recently I even battled with the idea that being loving is being weak, caring about another person and being vulnerable is weakness. "a serious disadvantage" as a friend of mine put it.
The idea of being cold and indifferent has seeped into the very strong holds of my faith. It's become more and more natural for us to think this way. But, its just not in my nature, if I were to actually move in that direction and huddle together with the masses, it would only add to the insanity. It would be a drop in the bucket but the world is leaking an gushing into this bucket. I'll be a drop out of the bucket.
Life does come full circle. All the times you bit down, said something nice when everything inside was screaming in wretched, perverse, agony...it truly pays off, you'll find yourself scooping up in armfuls what you sowed. Lalalalala life comes full circle.

So I took some time to finally hear from the Lord about these changes, what seems to be a contradiction of the free spirit and dedication I joined the family for.
I hoped this prophecy would be helpful to all my friend's and loved ones struggling with the same discouragement.
I love you

Like a bridge over troubled waters, I can teach you to be steady, and solid in your emotions and decisions, a strong oak where others can cling to when the winds of adversity are blowing hard.
I know there is so much you want for your own life, right now every one is searching themselves, trying to find what it is they've been held back from doing all this time but that's really beside the point. When your in my will you ARE doing just what you should be and even though I want people to find new levels of fulfillment, going about it that way already is showing how much some one's heart was in my word, my business. This change program wasn't designed to throw The Family up in the air like a gigantic pizza in hope all the pieces fall where they should. It is designed the sift through my children, it's a great purging. If your heart is set on things above and not things of this earth, on the spirit of love, then the change program will only enhance your discipleship and make you all the more a force to be reckoned with in this dark world. For you cannot love the lost whom you have not seen if you struggle with loving your brother and sister. You cannot lay down your life for the sheep without laying down your life for you brethren.
I know you can feel helpless and alone, every one is having to stand on their own two feet and face themselves they way I see them. Every one is really evaluating the depth of the revolution within themselves.
So let it try you, I have faith that if you hold on and cling to me, you will be an even stronger woman of God. In this time others will need you to speak faith and be encouraging. let your brokenness speak faith to my dear ones, people trust broken hearts. Only broken hearts can see eye to eye with a troubled soul, through the pretense and feelings of inadequacy and into the potential there is in each of my children. The change is going to expose a lot of ugliness, people who are out for self gain and its so important that my little love lights burn all the stronger during this time. our love for each other is what has always separated you from the church system. With out this love, many will be lost that are in the Family, and that could have joined.
So let your love so shine and don't be ashamed or feel weak like your disadvantaged because you love. As the world gets darker, love will glow all the brighter! Let love reign.
I love you Clay.

Viva La Revolution!

17/11/09

the "Naked" truth

Busted!"

Aperantly Chris Guitar has been working both sides.
He goes under the Alias Gianluca Grignani.





Chris?Chris??
No more lies Chris !

The best part of the Video is when chris is playing drums and throws the sticks in the air...very smooth, but it totally gives you away!
Even the Video screams and oozes with your style...nice try.

10/11/09

24


It happened on the 8th...but Im only posting now (sorry)
I think its going to be an amazing year and it has really already been!
The only pictures I have preforming at the Cervantino are with my WS guitarist and I can't post pictures with him (sorry) again.
BUT here is a before show photo my dear friend took of me



And then came the moment I knew I was destined for my whole life, through tears and puberty, waiting for that moment I knew would come.
I got off stage after our first little show and there he was, siting peacefully next to his wife, so peaceful it would be almost impossible to convince you he was about to rock the slide guitar on a intensely lit stage for hundreds.
He motioned for me to come over and said in the coolest accent you ever herd " was that you up there just then"? I sheepishly nodded (wait for it...) "that was great"! You have an Amazing voice, I love your sound"....
People, people, people... it means little or nothing when a perfectionist receives a compliment on something they know without doubt is far from perfect as an art form. The polite thing is of course, to graciously accept the compliment and move on, work harder. But! when a musical marvel, aged in the light of center stage, who has preformed SO many concerts to the point it no longer even makes him cold sweat or short of breath, says anything to apriciate your God given skill... its earth shaking! That poor little man got way more hugs from me then he bargained for.
later Jeremy signed my ol guitar and patted me on the back "keep singing"... life changing.

Im so glad I went to the Cervantino, it really was life changing. Even with all the intense changes the Family is still who we have always been. I was flipped out to meet and see us doing what we do best, reaching out, being little mirrors of the Lord's love to the world.
I love you All and miss you
Clay


04/11/09

am's big red freakin truck

When a woman goes through heart brake, she'll buy chocolate, watch self motivational films and what not....
when a man's heart brakes, he buys a TRUCK!!
BAM!
The guys don't play around, "broken heart, eat my dust"


soon to come...Cervantino update"!

25/10/09


something I painted a while back using water acrylics...just trying it on

23/10/09

I have my reasons



I can honestly say there was a time when I wanted to be Jeremy Spencer...I was about 8"

18/10/09

Everybody wants to be a Music Teacher

alas I've already had mine...

heart brakers anonymous: Hello every one! My names Chris...
group: Hello Chris!
I Just wanted to say, Im amazing!




And hes back... poor poor Jenny



Out of the blue my old heart throb Chris Guitar started writing me about music (of course)
He and I will be playing together at the Cervantino festival. YAY!
So I proved myself right AGAIN... sigh! you can be friends after you've been "Friends"

Thanks for everything Chris!

My my... I love old school pictures!



A taste of things to come... looking forward to it!



scary....