This has been my month of catching up, my time away from the thing I hate being away from. My affair; my mutual romance with life outside the box, my adventure, which is at the moment "to be continued".
I am making goode use of my time away from the field. Is it ok that I spell good with a silent e??
I think you should know, right now I'm having a moment, although its hard to say what kind. I'm at peace but afraid. There are butterflies in my stomach yet I feel empty. I'm happy, but also there is a sneaky sort of sadness, kind of like a grey cloud swelling with rain just above the prancing little butterflies, a cold under current in tropical water. It's like... depression.
I think the sadness I feel isn't mine, thats why I don't really feel it.
I have way too much to be thankful for to be sad anyway. This month I was given a bundle of memories, memories of you smiling, some of you crying and others were a mix of the two. These memories will last me long after your gone.
So here's what I'm willing to do, I'm going to take this rainbow of emotion and savor it, every shade of brilliant yellow, orange and red, along side the blues. What are rainbows without the blues anyway?
No use being sad when your supposed to be happy, God wants us to enjoy the happy days, without them life is one big shade of blue. So if you don't mind, I'm going to enjoy my shades of yellow and I wont deny you the right to the blues although I'm sorry, I can't join you singing them. It's my turn to be Jazzed.
But I'll never forget your smile and I'll pray always for it to return. You deserve to smile again... but please don't rub off on me. I want to be happy, and if you let me...maybe even happy enough for the two of us.
oh no, this is a rant.. wana see some fun pics??
As soon as I arrived in California I was starving, so the guys toook me for lunch on the beach!
But then Jesse had to take off to Puerto Rico
So the next day Steph got me up at 6 to go on a six mile hike...Up!
umm.. the end.. 4 now
The wedding was beautiful. I would have to say simple, which just made it all the more romantic.
but you know it's not the food, the location or drinks but the people who make the party worth while. We had quite a crowed, it was like an old school reunion. We made good used of our time and slapped together some music. Samson Murphy was in the house so we used and abused him. I think the songs will be coming out shortly for your listening pleasure.
My family is having a baby boom, there were toddlers all over the place, it was crazy! Hearing things like "where's my kid"? And waking up to find your child being nursed along side his confused cousin, were not out of the norm. We all took turns caring for them, it was a lot of fun, the babies all look so much like their daddies. But as much fun as I had with them, I am "auntie"
and can always give them right back to thier owners when I'm through with them. I'm quite happy with this arrangement. We were actually shy three kids who had to stay back with their mommies and daddies. (God Bless you Sam, would having given my right peircing for you to have made it.
It was amazing to see such a large handful of relatives all in the same place, I think it was very emotional for a lot of us. A blend of smiles and tears.
Also, special thanks to Philly for gracing us with your presence, "you made JD super happy".... and you know some great drinking games>
Who knows the next time we'll be able to be together again, I don't wana think about it. The Lord always makes a way. but I can't tell you how blessed I am because the more appropriate word is spoiled.
So there we were, about two dozen of us standing out in the cold waiting for the bride to make her way down the snowy slope where my brother was waiting nervously.
He dropped Terry's wedding ring some where in the snow; we couldn't stop the wedding for the lack of a ring, might as well get matching tattoos. But as the bride made her way to her husband to be her foot loosened a clump of snow revealing the lost ring which she had no idea was missing. As if part of the ceremony JD walked over to her and picked up the ring while kneeling at her feet.
Their vows were made and cheers burst out from the crowed when they finally kissed.
I'm so happy my brother's heart has found a cozy little place to rest. For those of us who have seen him struggle and fight it was a crowning moment. Terry really is an amazing girl.
So Victor (old friend) began to play something on his acoustic guitar as the bride went to throw up her bouquet. For the sake of tradition as well as trying to be a good sport i positioned myself ready to catch the thing single women fear most. I looked around and found I was all alone. "cowards" I cried out while demanding the other girls join me. I'm not very superstitious but I did NOT want to be the one catching that thing. Terry threw it twice and no one made an effort to catch it. On the third try it went flying straight for my head. it was out of necessity I tell you, the freaking thing might have taken my eye out.
The after party was also a lot of fun, but it was the after, after party that I shall always remember. I think we were all having too much fun to take pictures of Philly balancing a broom, pizza box and what have you on his nose. Most of the pictures taken are formal ones, but they'll do.
The Jackson's (Namely my wife Jessica) Oh you didn't know I am married? Well my wife
provisioned an amazing hotel and breakfast for the newly-weds. She scorched the place with chocolates, flaming hot underwear "including a tux-thong for Jaydee (according to Terry he DID try it on) There was even a little fire place...very cool.
That night I slept in a massive bed across the hall with my best'est friend ever/wife/mother of my children. I missed you hun.
Here are a few great photos so you can feel the love.
Ok, I love you guys... Long live love!
PS, I'm wearing MC Hammer pants... can't touch this"