04/07/2008

a positive thing

a friend of mine was lecturing me on the need for me to cry more. Tears are kind of like our worries and fears leaving the body" he said. It's good for you.
He even sent me a song. "this should help excite some emotion", listen to it and let it rip.
My friend is a cancer and very in touch with his feelings. I like to brag about having a cancer rising but I'm afraid I'm just not as elegant or darling as most cancer chicks, and those tears don't come nearly as easy to me.
But, I've been working on finding an outlet for a problem I seem to have with suppressing my emotions. I used to believe my emotions were evil and that I should do everything it takes to suppress them.
My mother called me a wet blanket when I was a kid, so at an early age I began to suppress it. To my mom, wet blanket was a nick name for her much loved youngest daughter, to me it was a sign that I was the week link.
It's not that I've never cried, but I feel terrible when I do. I feel terrible when I feel in general.
can some one tell me the deference between being a bitter person and one who maybe has just learned from their mistakes and avoids making them.
Maybe I've swapped suppressing tears for simply avoiding situations that may cause them to begin with. Maybe bitter people hold everything inside where it festers and blackens the blood, cautious people just avoid the little black rain clouds.
So, I'm trying to allow myself the commodity of a tear here or there, it's not happened yet, but it really needs to. Being strong in myself is not allowing the Lord to be strong for me. It poisons the spirits and the physical body as well.
Ever since I've committed to being more humble in this aria, I hardly recognise myself. I actually hate it, I don't quite have it under control but it's going to take time, I think about a year and a half for the Lord to bring a better, meeker person out of me.
In the mean time, I hope you all see this as a positive thing and encourag and also pray for me.

I love you


I thot this was very appropriate



mClay

13 comentários:

thisisme disse...

"Can some one tell me the deference between being a bitter person and one who maybe has just learned from their mistakes and avoids making them."

A bitter person has something happen to them and holds it against the people involved. Doesn't matter how long it is in the past, it festers within. Someone who has "learned from their mistakes" has learned what they can from the situation and has come to forgive and forget. They don't hold it against the people involved because they learned from it, even if they were hurt by it, and continued on their way. To be bitter really just means that you haven't learned from the circumstance. Forgiveness is one of the main things that anyone must learn first if they are to truly benefit from anything.

The question is though, can anyone really truly learn enough from their mistakes to avoid them? Is avoidance really the best policy? Say a situation were to come up that is similar to one that you have gone through before. You avoid it because you don't want to be "hurt again" but is that really the best way? There is never any situation that is exactly the same as one that has transpired before. There are different people involved, different circumstances too. If you think about it your not even the same person now as you were then so even you are different, in a way. Therefore, to see how it begins one cannot say how it will end because its a different equation to the whole thing. In my opinion it is better to go through it again rather then to avoid because the equation is different so how does one know that the outcome will turn out to be the same?

Sam disse...

:)

I love you and hope to see you soon.

Love and prayers,

Stephanie~

Queen Killjoy disse...

I don't cry anymore either, Ree. There are better outlets for emotion, such as art, writing, blogging, etc. No need to cry if there is a less messy way of dealing with things.

Boo ya disse...

i know exactly what that's like...not being able to find a balance between letting the lord work and also not letting your emotions spill everywhere. lord knows, he'll take care of you. xxxx you're in my prayers

Anônimo disse...

Amazing Song & Subject!

Remember Our Husband
Wept! "Jesus Wept"
about the Lazarus situation,
cause he had a special love with that Family.

He has a Special Love for everyone of course.

O, by the way Dre
that is Amazing Insight of which I will copy & share! Thanks!

I figure, if we jus stay in prayer
& Hot contact with HIM
we will react or be mediums of HIM to people.

Of course, as St. Paul
we do tnings we dont wanna & wanna do things we dont, because of the law of the flesh vs the law of the Spirit.

So, in tnis war for love
as long as our Victories are more & more that our battles (in the balance) we should be happy, joyful, the Joy of our Salvation,,
somehow,,,shining through inevitable tears!

XOXOXOXOXOXO

papa

Ps
Dre , I also noticed you began with a question! Cool

c ya

GBY

angie disse...

dont be afraid of tears
when they fall like drops of rain...
haha
you're lucky you're not a cryer

Marie Clay disse...

Oh Ang, ur so cute, and dad, I think ur right about dr Dre. How old r u again Dre?? I guess I have to agree with you, only the fact that your a boy makes me think your one sided! nah, JK, this has nothing to do with genders, this could mean anything, even riding a horse for all you know. I think your probably smack on the money!
Cha cha cha

e-ric disse...

Guaranteed to bring tears:

A son asked his father, 'Dad, will you take part in a marathon with me?'

The father who, despite having a heart condition, says 'Yes'. They went

on to complete the marathon together.

Father and son went on to join other marathons, the father always saying

'Yes' to his son's request of going through the race together.

One day, the son asked his father, 'Dad, let's join the Ironman

together.' To which, his father said 'Yes' to.

For those who didn't know, Ironman is the toughest triathlon ever. The

race encompasses three endurance events of a 2.4 mile (3.86 kilometer)

ocean swim, followed by a 112 mile (180.2 kilometer) bike ride, and

ending with a 26.2 mile (42.195 kilometer) marathon along the coast of

the Big Island.

Father and son went on to complete the race together. View this

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=8cf08faca5dd9ea45513

pa

e-ric disse...

ooops I forgot

a B day gift to help marie have tears :D

A son asked his father, 'Dad, will you take part in a marathon with me?'

The father who, despite having a heart condition, says 'Yes'. They went

on to complete the marathon together.

Father and son went on to join other marathons, the father always saying

'Yes' to his son's request of going through the race together.

One day, the son asked his father, 'Dad, let's join the Ironman

together.' To which, his father said 'Yes' to.

For those who didn't know, Ironman is the toughest triathlon ever. The

race encompasses three endurance events of a 2.4 mile (3.86 kilometer)

ocean swim, followed by a 112 mile (180.2 kilometer) bike ride, and

ending with a 26.2 mile (42.195 kilometer) marathon along the coast of

the Big Island.

Father and son went on to complete the race together. View this

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=8cf08faca5dd9ea45513

Anônimo disse...

Thats a good song.... Great song, actually......

Anônimo disse...

i was witnessing to a nice truck driver & had asked him if I could pray for him about anything,,,at 1st he kindly said no, but after a while, before I left, he said I could pray for our people overseas,,meaning the soldiers ect,
so the Lord had me pray wisely for them & even the opposing sides & world leadership ect ,,when I looked up he had tears running down both sides,,,& said,,with red eyes,,he had lost many buddies in Vietnam,,so I was able to assure him he would see them again in their true state & how all things would be solved! :D

paw

Anônimo disse...

Omg this post is like somethin I've been wanting to rite for ages. Describes me exactly. Awesome Marie Clay. Yeah I think we all need to realize that tears is a good thing, not somethin to be ashamed of. And that's a really good song btw.

Marie Clay disse...

Glad you liked it Alana XOXO