something I painted a while back using water acrylics...just trying it on

I have my reasons

I can honestly say there was a time when I wanted to be Jeremy Spencer...I was about 8"

Everybody wants to be a Music Teacher

alas I've already had mine...

heart brakers anonymous: Hello every one! My names Chris...
group: Hello Chris!
I Just wanted to say, Im amazing!

And hes back... poor poor Jenny

Out of the blue my old heart throb Chris Guitar started writing me about music (of course)
He and I will be playing together at the Cervantino festival. YAY!
So I proved myself right AGAIN... sigh! you can be friends after you've been "Friends"

Thanks for everything Chris!

My my... I love old school pictures!

A taste of things to come... looking forward to it!

scary....

I want to be thoroughly used up when I die

I'd almost forgotten how to appreciate the little things.
the weird comments the kids make to each other, how only another 3 year old can understand and reply with something equally confusing.
The fact that my underwear match today.
My own room and a brand new lap top just in time to study XD.
Sam.
Thank you for the Little things Lord.

My choice quote for the month.

Purpose: This is the true joy in life—being used for a purpose … being a force of nature, instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy. I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the whole community and as long as I live it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can. I want to be thoroughly used up when I die. Life is no brief candle to me. It's a sort of splendid torch which I've got to hold up for the moment and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations.—George Bernard Shaw

Men!

its rainy season on the splat life

I've learned something valuable this week.
I spoke with some one important about my hurts, the things that bothered me and made me feel like I can't go on.
My heart was actually full of anger and feelings that I was right and the world had turned it's back on me.
The response of my listener and the solution we came to was beautiful and I think post worthy.

If people don't know our heart and if all we ever do is bite down and swallow our feelings, refusing to let anyone see, we are creating a circle that has no end, where there is no exit, no hope of being free.
How can people help us and make our lives easier when they don't even know the lava curdling inside.
When I opened my heart to this some one, I felt that even though he couldn't fix the problems or change the past, at least finally some one knew. By sharing my heart maybe other situations could be salvaged and handled with more care. On top of that he was able to clear up a lot of smoke for me and helped me with my perspective.
I felt stupid for keeping it all in for so long. Maybe my pride held me back, wanting to believe I was strong and afraid of what may happen if this weakling was allowed to be made know to those who look up to me or those I look up to.
My fear of imperfection was exactly what was holding me back from being whole. None of us are capable of never making mistakes, of never feeling hurt. Opening up is healing. Silence is a slow death to all hope and love we have inside of us.
We can't be angry with the world for shutting us out when we haven't opened the door to let her in.

Clay

weekend with Older sister with a capital "Ohhh"

singing song to mom with ultra dorky look on my face while play wothless, fit for a trash heep guitar Yes...I did gain 5 kls...but you never lose by gaining heh..ehem! but it was worth it, every greasy, sugar covered dumpling "Pose like your happy!"

The End